TegzyPuff97

I didn't mention any of this earlier, but now's as good a time as any I guess. 

In February I began experiencing unusual abdominal pains, so I went to the doctors to investigate them, and after three months and two sets of ultrasounds, they discovered a cyst on my left ovary, a rather large one at that, and referred me to a gynaecologist.

So my first gynaecology appointment was at the end of April, and by mid May they opted for surgery. The cyst was suspected to be a result of Endometriosis, and was as big as a standard soda can in May.

the doctors suspected that the cyst may have caused too much damage to my ovary to be able to separate it or save my ovary, so i was concerned for that, and they planned to perform the surgery keyhole, but there was a chance i'd need a bigger cut.

I was operated on Friday afternoon (australian time), and was discharged from hospital Saturday afternoon. They managed to save my ovary, and remove a bit of endometriosis from my ureter (tube from kidney to bladder), and my wounds are minimal.

I'm happy to say I'm recovering relatively well, just requiring a lot of sleep and over-the-counter pain medications.


PS

I'd like anyone with a uterus to look into what endometriosis is and the symptoms. It affects 1/10 women and is often ignored thinking that it's just bad menstrual pain. If you experience any pains that sit outside your normal cycle, or suddenly experience pains in places you don't usually get pains, speak to your doctor.

You have...

 

[ ] smoked

[x] consumed alcohol

[x] slept in the same bed with someone of the opposite sex

[x] slept in the same bed with someone of the same sex

[x] kissed someone of the same sex

[x] kissed someone of the opposite sex

[x] had someone in your room other than family

[x] watched porn

[ ] bought porn

[ ] tried drugs

 

TOTAL: 7

 

[x] taken painkillers

[x] taken someone else's prescription medicine (only when my prescribed pain stuff isn’t strong enough)

[x] lied to your parents

[x] lied to a friend (probably)

[ ] sneaked out of the house

[/] done something illegal

[x] felt hurt

[x] hurt someone (not intentionally)

[ /] gotten into a fight (Not physically)

[ ] wished someone to die

[ ] seen someone die

TOTAL: 7

 

[/] missed curfew (like once)

[ ] stayed out all night

[/] eaten a carton of ice cream by yourself

[x] been to a therapist

[ ] received a ticket

[ ] been to rehab

[x] dyed your hair (red streak in ninth grade)

[x] been in an accident

[ ] been to a club

[ ] been to a bar

TOTAL: 4

 

[/] been to a wild party

[/] drank more than three alcoholic beverages in a night

[ ] had a spring break in Florida

[ ] sniffed anything (highlighters count?)

[x] wore black nail polish

[x] wore arm bands

[x] wore t-shirts with band names

[ ] listened to rap

[ ] owned a 50 Cent CD

TOTAL: 4

 

[x] dressed gothic

[ ] dressed lolita

[x] dressed girly

[x] dressed punk

[x] dressed grunge

[ ] stole something

[ ] been too drunk to remember anything

[ ] blacked out

[x] fainted

[x] laughed at someone's pain

[ ] had a crush on a neighbour

TOTAL: 6

 

[x] had a crush on a friend

[x] been to a concert

[x] dry-humped someone

[x] been called a slut

[x] called someone a slut (in the dark ages)

[ ] installed speakers in your car

[ ] broken a mirror

[ ] showered at someone of the opposites sex's house

[ ] brushed your teeth with someone else's toothbrush

TOTAL: 5

 

[ ] considered Ludacris your favorite rapper

[/] seen an R-rated movie in theater (American R is Australian MA)

[ ] cruised on mail (What does that even mean?)

[ ] skipped school

[ ] had surgery (not yet, ask again in a couple months)

[x] had an injury

[ ] gone to court 

[ ] walked out of a restaurant without paying

[x] caught something on fire (safely and intentionally)

[x] lied about your age

TOTAL: 3.5

 

[/] owned/rented an apartment/house (I’m on my mum’s lease)

[ ] broke the law in the police's presence

[ ] made out with someone who had a gf/bf

[ ] got in trouble with the police

[x] talked to a stranger

[ ] hugged a stranger

[ ] licked a stranger

[x] been verbally harassed

[/] been physically harassed

TOTAL: 3

 

[x] met face-to-face with someone you met online

[x] stayed online for 5+ hours straight

[x] talked on the phone for more than 4 hours straight

[x] watched TV for 5 hours straight

[x] been to a fair

[ ] been called a bad influence

[ ] drank and drove

[ ] prank-called someone

[x] laid on a couch with someone of the opposite sex

[ ] cheated on a test

TOTAL: 6

 

GRAND TOTAL: 46.5

 

If You Have Less Than 10...Write [I'm a Goody Goody]

If You Have More Than 10...Write [I'm average]

If You Have More Then 20...Write [I'm a bad kid]

If You Have More Than 30...Write [I'm a bad influence]

If You Have More Than 40...Write [I'm a horrible person]

If You Have More Than 50...Write [I should be in jail]

If you have More Than 60...Write [I should be shot]

If You Have More Than 70...Write [I should be dead]

So, uh, I did a thing the other night. I made the effort to go to a poetry open mic night. the night before, I rummaged through my old poetry and found a piece I had to continue, and in fifteen minutes, that 2014 poem of philosophical/existential angst had been changed into something empowering and deeply emotional. I will post the full poem (both parts in one deviation) so you can see what I mean.

But to get to the point, I performed that poem with power and confidence to a room of 30 people, and I loved it. I loved the thrill! This is the sort of fun that becomes addictive.

I've reached a point in my teenage/young adult life, where I’m wanting to do all the things people do when they've just reached legal age. Often at age 18 people have a lot of high school friends they go out drinking with for their first time or parties to go to, just those common things, and I feel robbed because I never did that.

In my last few years of high school I didn’t have many friends, and those I had weren’t my age. All my friends (except the odd couple) are a couple years older or 2-3 years younger. So, I never got to do the thing where your group of friends reach legal age and have a night out to celebrate, or get together at home to drink and do silly things, and I’m now 19, going 20, and still haven’t done anything like that. My social life has dwindled, my older friends aren’t the 'going out' type, and my younger friends are all underage. How do I overcome that? I mean, now I’m nervous, almost scared to go to bars and places like that because I feel like I don’t belong there. I’m nerdy, awkward, and honestly, I look younger than my age, I don’t know how to make friends anymore so at uni I have a total of 4 students I can talk to, all guys, and I don’t really know what I’m doing with my life. I mean, my studies are in some sort of order, and that's fine, but I’m not really LIVING, just seem to be going through the motions.

I guess what I’m asking here is how can I break out of that? Maybe if I make friends and do teenage social things I won’t be so prone to breakdowns and stress. I want to live while I’m young before it's too late and I miss it all. Why did I have to grow up and become so mature so young. I never did anything stupid out of respect for my parents, so they wouldn’t worry about me, and now I haven’t done anything stupid.

I guess what adds insult to injury is that my boyfriend goes and does all these social things, because he did all that stuff, and I don't go with him.

So, hey, I know I haven't updated my journal in ages, and as I type this there's probably a quiz thingy there, but I just haven't had anything to say.

The last two weeks on the other hand, have been amazing!

I suppose I should cut to the chase here: I found me a boyfriend.

I didn't have any friends at uni at all, but two weeks ago 'he' talked to me, and we pretty much hit it off straight away. So, I've been dating him for a week and loving every minute.

I'm not sure what that means in terms of my poetry or writing yet, I may struggle to write about it for some time, it may trigger me to write more romantic prose, I'm not sure, but I'm loving life right now!

Thanks for reading my rambling.